"Absent"

ab=sent - a: not existent; lacking b: exhibiting or feeling inattentiveness

That pretty much explains my blog activity lately. I wish I had some great excuse or reason, but I can't really think of anything......... Actually, that's not entirely true. I have had a lot of things going on in my life. It has been very hectic with work, friends, personal and etc. I'm sure I will post about it in the next couple of weeks.

I was actually going to post earlier this week, but I became very ill! And when I say ill, i mean, throwing up, missing work, can't get out of bed for over 16 hours sick. It was recommended to me that I go to the hospital on Monday night, but obviously I didn't want to do that! I think my co-worker probably realized how sick I was when I had her just drop off something for me at my door, because I wasn't able to meet her at the door. (btw, thanks B!)

One thing you do learn when you are sick is how no one really worries about you too much. Well, aside from your parents. But out of everyone in my office, I only heard from 2 people inquiring how I was doing! Though, it was probably the 2 people that I would of guessed would inquire. But it shows you how very little you can be missed.

Otherwise, there have been many other happenings going on in my life right now, but I will probably save some of those for a later post. Probably the main reason I haven't posted in a while is that I haven't felt very creative or should I say I've had a case of writer's block! Which actually reminded me of a song "Brian Wilson" from the Barenaked Ladies. Now you may ask, why would that remind you of that song??

"Brian Wilson" was actually written about Brian Wilson of the Beach Boys. He is considered one of the most influential pop composers of the last 50 years. Anyway, Wilson went through a period of great personal struggle of extreme depression. It saw him go through a period of recluse where he endured a long drug addiction and weight gain. This song has a lot deeper meaning than one would first think. It talks about how Wilson went through a creative drought that saw him spend days on length just lying in bed. One interesting part of the song talks about a sandbox. Wilson did have a big sandbox placed in his house. He felt that it might inspire creativity.

Anyway, by no means am I in a period of depression!!! :-) But when I was thinking about my inability to think of anything to write this song did come to mind. It is an excellent tune and I included it below for your enjoyment!

Keep on, keepin' on
-J

"Loyalty"

loy=al=ty – a: the state or quality of being loyal. b: a feeling or attitude devoted attachment or affection.

I wanted to just write a short post today. I’ve learned in life that the one group of people that you can usually count on being loyal to you is your family. (sure this isn’t always the case, but your best bet) I also am a big believe in being loyal to my friends and tend to have faith that they will be loyal to me.

There is something that has been on my mind for a couple weeks and I haven’t really said anything. You always want to believe that no matter what your friends will be loyal to you and tell you information no matter how much it may hurt you.

What they don’t realize is that, though it may hurt me, it actually hurts me more knowing that they haven’t said anything to me about it. One thing that I’ve always had is a great intuition and a lot of times I know things that are going on before someone actually tells me. Well unfortunately, I’ve learned of some new developments and I would expect “friends” of mine to inform me of this information. But I guess you can't always count on that!

The fact is: I know they know, and they probably know that I know, but are afraid it will hurt me more, when in all actuality it hurts me more by keeping it from me!

Keep on, keepin’ on
-J